It's been a whole year :(

She has been gone a year tonight.  One year ago I rushed her to the emergency veterinary clinic but it was too late.  Her battle with diabetes among other unknowns (kidney, liver disorders) was just too much.  In the weeks preceeding her seizure, I knew I was losing her.  Her spirit was gone, she didn't jump up on my chair to cuddle.  I didn't know our time was to come to an end, but when it did, I knew.  I knew it was time to let her go. 

I held her and told her I loved her.  I held her as she slipped away.  I still have her ashes.  She was an indoor kitty, and so she shall remain.

I still miss her.  So much!  I miss her little "brrrrrup!" noises, her contented grunts, her purrs in my ear.  I miss her soft fur and the funny, scrunched up face she made when I tickled her chin.  I miss how she persistently demanded treats.   I miss her gentle spirit and kind face.  I miss her rough kisses and wiffing in my ear.  I miss her early morning yowls. 

I miss her wise and calm influence.  She knew what was important; a good meal, a bed to call your own and someone special to cuddle with. 

I miss you little one.  Very much.

Comments

[Felicia]

I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful kitty.

[Steph]

sniff, sniff - i totally feel for you, lisa! our maggie is starting to decline. she's getting so much more snuggly and really attaching herself to me at every opportunity. i can feel her need to be with me and it worries me.

i'm so sorry for your loss. :(

[Catherine]

I'm so sorry you lost you kitty. I understand how they become a part of us and it's like losing a child. I lost my Teddy after 20 years together and I was glad I could be there with her when she passed. I planted her under a rosebush at my parents (where she had grown up).

[jenn shurkus]

this is beautiful......